learning

so this morning to get through class regina spektors' lyrics to apres moi popped into my head out of no where.

i must go on standing. you can't break that which isn't yours. 

i, oh must go on standing i'm not my own, it's not my choice.

so powerful. so far class has been something out of this world. i know that might sound cliche and even crazy but it is truly an intense experience.

after lunch we delivered half moon to bikram and over 300 trainees and staff watching. i was 5th in the first group of people on stage. i delivered it great - got down to 'absolutely straight line slowly bend your body to the right' immediately i froze. didn't miss one word until that point. so i said it again and SAVED it yay!  bikram even used me as an example as saying what i did right when i froze for a bit was repeat the line to trigger my memory to remember the next line. he looked at me and said 'you are very smart...not like a dummy saying um um' and then a bit later he said i have 'fantastic energy.' overall i was pleased. of course being the perfectionist i am....it pissed me off a bit that is wasn't 100% perfect- but we are all human and i have to keep in mind this is a growing process. i am learning so much while i am here. it is truly amazing and i am truly grateful for this opportunity!