halfway mark

so we have arrived...at least to the halfway point. i feel like here when you just think you have the dialog or class figured out (at least for me it's feeling prepared) you get smacked down. so far only minimal smack downs. but i am learning to not live with any expectations. for me that is huge. to just be, take each moment as it comes, because here and in our life daily we never know what will be thrown our way. so instead of getting completely wigged out about the next posture i have to learn in under 24 hours, i just say one line and move onto the next. wake up early, put in the time, and do the work. it is difficult making your brain work on little sleep and your body function while being exhausted BUT it could be worse. staying positive and remaining grateful has preserved my mental state here. the minute i go to the 'dark side' (insert darth vader breathing here) it's over. so yes- thinking positive- no matter what your present situation works. it's amazing.