hit me

hit me please someone hit me. i probably wouldn't feel it because i feel completely run over. kara and i got 7 hours of sleep (an all time high for the week) and i woke up feeling wiped out. class was difficult - i've been trying to set my intention for each class to go further (we are at the halfway point so i feel like i owe it to myself and my practice). i just hurt as in all over hurt. it's not that i'm complaining - i had a great day yesterday and had really good energy. today i just feel the yoga beat down. at least it's friday...couple of classes to go. ugghhh i feel like a stiff, tired, rusty, degenerated yoga robot. i need some fine tuning.

it's official

it's official- we are into week 5.

i haven't shaved my legs in several days

this is the third day i've skipped breakfast/lunch to do dialog in the room

i haven't been in the pool for a whole week

and i'm beginning to speak like i am saying dialog

upper body back at the end!

wind removing woes

no this isn't a post about farting. i could write a book about that after this training...but i'm a lady and won't even go there. i am talking about wind removing posture people! 

so tonight in class we found out we are not having lecture and instead we have posture clinic! and oh crap- that means another posture- wind removing. that is 3 in one day!!! so i basically have to learn it tonight before dinner. this is when i actually lay on my bed with wet hair/just showered /shoveled dinner down and actually do the posture while i'm saying the dialog to understand it. 

as johnny cash said best

'i'm stuck in folsom prison, and time keeps draggin on'

but here at teacher training -it's stuck in posture clinic and the postures keep coming on :)

the highlight of my day-when they played bon jovis' living on a prayer song-awesome! i was so happy i was almost crying and laughing at the same time. everyone started singing at the top of their lungs- it is quite an amazing accomplishment that we are halfway there and i think that sheer joy(along with bon jovis' awesomeness :) is quite contagious. for that i am grateful.

halfway mark

so we have arrived...at least to the halfway point. i feel like here when you just think you have the dialog or class figured out (at least for me it's feeling prepared) you get smacked down. so far only minimal smack downs. but i am learning to not live with any expectations. for me that is huge. to just be, take each moment as it comes, because here and in our life daily we never know what will be thrown our way. so instead of getting completely wigged out about the next posture i have to learn in under 24 hours, i just say one line and move onto the next. wake up early, put in the time, and do the work. it is difficult making your brain work on little sleep and your body function while being exhausted BUT it could be worse. staying positive and remaining grateful has preserved my mental state here. the minute i go to the 'dark side' (insert darth vader breathing here) it's over. so yes- thinking positive- no matter what your present situation works. it's amazing.

week 5

he made me into a polished arrow 

isaiah 49:2

what are you but the masters' tools forming a work divine?

we are in the throws of week 5. besides being tired, sore, and my rib issue all is well. i feel like i have learned so much in this first month. at the same time i feel i have a long way to go. we are at the half way point so it can only go up from here- right?! :) at least that is what i am hoping for. our non trainee neighbor woke kara and i up with his bloody phone convo and blaring tv this morning at 6am and we went to bed around 1. so needless to say it was a fun morning.

to all my friends and family - i miss you all so much and appreciate your love and support. can't wait to hug your necks!

sunday sunday

it was so nice to sleep in this morning. woke up had some cereal and a banana and went to the spa- my little safe haven here at training. i have developed quite an addiction to their red tea and comfy chairs in the waiting room. it's a nice contrast to the intensity of our weekly training schedule.

after the spa i changed into my suit to lay by the pool and study. bumped into celeste and she introduced me to round robin studying- thought i wouldn't be a fan but rose and stroud joined in and we had a little circle study session going. it works because you say the words so many times you have no choice but to absorb it. after that i came up to the room and kara and i caught up on the days events apart from one another- i get a little lonely not being with my roomie all the time. yes - i'll admit i'm attached :) 

had an thrown together dinner of jiff and a banana- pure happiness! watched part of the first episode of season 5 the office on the laptop. our last treat for the weekend before week 5 officially starts!!!

sat morning class

yes i took this in the posture upside down :)